Life at Our House

I Love The Daddy's!

2011-02-19T16:06:00.000-08:00

Praise God! My eyes hadn't even opened early this AM when I began thinking about the Lord and how much He has healed and restored my life. It was the first time I have actually gone back to those 'younger' days when I was such a rebel and not left them feeling like a horrible person! Today, I left them saying 'Thank you God for healing me, for restoring me, for bringing me out of a terrible place'. I began thinking of my parents and all that I put them through. I thought of how they loved me through it all, trying their best to respond the right way. Then, I began to question myself, 'WHY?' Why did I do those things and behave that way?

  My father was a very hard worker, who traveled often. I knew he loved me, he always provided for us, and when he was home he spent hours of quality time with us. So, I am not here to say I had a poor father, in my heart I feel quite the contrary, and before he died he restored so much to me. Now, through years of healing, I realize that he couldn't give us children things that he didn't receive as a child himself, without God of course. Every little girl and boy need their daddy. What if I would have had my dad around for all of the affirmation, hugs, long walks, etc... Even if dads aren't traveling, the world is still dealing with absentee fathers, they can be absent if in the home daily, they are stuck on the computer, busy with the TV, or busy with ministry(Ouch!). I can tell you right now that not having those long talks with dad, heart-felt moments, him telling me how beautiful I am, affirming me, helping me along the way--it mattered! Of course when the first 'male' comes along and tells you those things you are going to fall hook, line, and sinker. I did! And, I have regretted it for years. I, in fact, fell hook, line, and sinker for anything that made me feel 'better', made me feel 'important', made me feel 'needed', made me feel 'beautiful', made me feel 'honored', and much more. I have felt such shame about the whole history of my life as a teenager. And shame is no joke! It leaves you feeling insecure and much more. I have struggled with confidence in who God has called me to be, in who I am. I have felt shame from others who know me. I have felt like they were always thinking of the mess I created in my sin. And, even if they were...it really doesn't matter, I just hadn't been healed enough to walk through that without feeling worse about myself.
   Healing is a beautiful thing! God is so wonderful to forgive our sins, to let it all go for us and not let it hang over our heads. I realize I have been allowing my past sins to just dangle around me and continue to blow their nasty residue all over my mind. I have been redeemed!! I am forgiven. And, guess what, God doesn't think about those things anymore. I am new, I am clean. How much of this has played into the atmosphere of our home? The shame I have dealt with, the lack of confidence, me not feeling like I could be myself because it wouldn't 'please' others? It causes frustrations, nasty tones, bad attitudes, etc...WE ARE FREE in Christ, we can rest, he loves us no matter what! We have given our hearts to Him and that's all He needs to begin the good work.
   I had a 'teachable moment' with my 11 yo last night. We talked and talked and worked through some conflict for waaay too long...;). In the end, guess who she wanted to carry her to bed, tuck her in, and affirm her, make her laugh, give her a big hug, tell her how much she is loved...her DADDY!! DADDY'S are huge!! Let's pray for our 'daddy's' to step up to the plate and be the godly men of our homes that they are called to be. And--Thank you to all you wonderful father's out there that have this revelation and put nothing before God and your ministry as a husband and father. John-I LOVE YOU!  It is THE most important part of lives, that relationship leads us to our relationship with God...daddy's are our first picture of God. What picture to our homes paint?

I am out of free time--but, can't wait to share some about our homeschooling conference! It was amazing. There was a lot of 'school' seminars, but a lot more 'real' issue seminars that ministered to me. You will definitely be getting a bit of that soon :)!

Countdown is on! Can't wait to see all you wonderful peoples...my love continues to grow for you all!

Resting in the Arms of God Today,

'Be thou the mother of thousands of millions and let thy seed possess the gate...'

2011-01-21T01:26:00.000-08:00

Oh, the joy they bring! And, they prepared this all on their own!

What does the Bible say about having children? Ooohh, don't grit your teeth too hard, don't gringe at the thought ;). Do we care? Do we think about this, or 'conveniently' pass the topic up, or just ignore the subject? Is this something that we are taught about or is this subject left out of our teachings? Recently, I have picked up a book that I read about 7 years ago called, 'Be Fruitful and Multiply'. It is more of a Bible study. We have 4 children in our home right now and I can't imagine not having another. In the meantime, I really wanted to study again what the Lord has to say about the matter of blessing marriages with children, and once again, I was so encouraged. Did you know that fruitfulness is God's blessing? It is the first and highest blessing that God gives to marriage! Read Genesis 1:28--God blesses Adam and Eve and commands them to be fruitful and multiply. I then began to just look up all of the scriptures that talk about blessings and children. I will just list the references:

Genesis 9:1,2,7 Genesis 17:15-17 Genesis 17:20 Genesis 22: 17-18 Genesis 24:60 Genesis 28:1-3 Genesis 30:13 Genesis 48: 3,4 Genesis 49:25 Leviticus 26: 3,9 Deuteronomy 1:10-11 Deuteronomy 7:12-16 Deuteronomy 13:17 Deuteronomy 28:1-10 Deuteronomy 33:24 Deuteronomy 28:63 Deuteronomy 30:5 1 Chronicles 26:4-5 Job 42:12-15 Psalm 107:38 Psalm 115:12-15 Psalm 127:3-5 Psalm 128 Isaiah 51:2 Jeremiah 30:19 Luke 1:28,31

Can you believe how many references there are? And, after reading all of those we can see that conception is a result of God's blessing in our lives. When God says 'I want to bless you,' our response is often , 'thank you Lord for the new house, or thank you for a car, that will be wonderful.' But then God says, 'hold on, I want to bless you with a little baby...I want more godly offspring.' At this point, are we open and willing to receive the blessing? Or, do we reject this blessing?
I know it is not always a cake walk having children, let alone 4 or even more. And, when I think about it sometimes, especially right after a new baby arrives, I think, 'man, can I really do this again?' Then, as time goes by, and the challenges of postpartum, new routines, etc... go, my heart just melts again. And, like this moment, I think, how can I even begin to trust myself over God? I have trusted myself way too long, and that is when I realized I was totally destroying my life. I finally surrendered my LIFE to him, does that allow me to hold on to my reproduction capabilities? 'Can I please just be in charge of that God? I will give you the rest of my life.' There is really no way around it for me. I can't biblically back up 'not' having more children. Do you believe this is something we should ask the Lord about?
And, then you have the whole Psalm 127:4-5 talking about 'arrows' in the hands of the mighty, etc... If you study all of the scriptures about arrows(and, I won't bore you with the references, but they are there) we realize that arrows don't just happen overnight. It takes hours and hours of patiently working to straighten and sharpen an arrow so that it will hit the mark. God has called us to this task. He wants us to be arrow sharpeners! The more 'straight arrows' we prepare, the more arrows to help God fulfill His plan on earth. I will quote Nancy Campbell, the author of 'Be Fruitful and Multiply', 'Unless you are a warrior, you cannot train warriors. Unless you understand the battle, how can you have a vision to raise 'arrows'." Do we understand the battle? I am trying to gain a better understanding. Lord, show us more of the battle plan so that we can continue to walk it out in love and with patience and perseverance.
In reference to the Bible, 'arrows' were for war! Satan hasn't forgotten God's word. He knows that if he can limit us, he will limit the light that will expose darkness. He will limit truth that will expose deception. He will limit the 'arrows' that will destroy His work!!! I just don't see how we, as Christians, can get around these truths found in the Word. I would love to hear you comments concerning this subject. Please give me your feedback and let's study this out together. What about birth control? What are your thoughts? Think of the lights that would be living on every street...think of the arrows exposing darkness. Of course, I am not saying this theory is fact, but it is food for thought, and very important food at that. (**about our 'arrows'. I cannot imagine life without each and every one of them. The joy they bring, the laughter, the purging of my own sinful nature- oh, how they are used by God to get my nastiness out! And, how can I resist the others God has? They are so precious.)

How could I say 'no'?

On a more relaxed note, we just got back from the most amazing vacation! The children, John, and I both had such a blessed time! God is so good and continues to care for us, lead us, and well, I just love Him! It was awesome. A break from the daily tasks of life, everyone needs it, and the morale around the home is so exciting! I cannot wait to see you all in America. It is going to be so much fun. John and I are looking so forward to spending the summer there, baseball, swimming, cook-outs, camping, and most of all, lots and lots of love and fellowship from our dearest family and friends.

Be blessed and please give me some feedback. You DO know that this is my 'hanging' out time with you all, right? So, grab a cup of tea/coffee and pull up your chair and tell me your thoughts on this all. Just act like I am across the table ;).

Sandy

2011-- IT's GOD To Be Alive!

2011-01-09T08:05:00.000-08:00

I have been reflecting over the past year, well, the past four actually. The time we have lived here in Thailand. It has not been easy. Having four children, living in another culture, the heat, the changes, etc... Those are all factors that can make life somewhat challenging. This is a new year, and I am so thankful for 2011! I feel that I am 'Sandy' again. Seems like forever since I have felt normal, like I do right now. In the midst of these past few years, I didn't realize how difficult things really were. I look back on them now, and thank God, those times are past. That I will not have to be a 'first year' missionary again. Thankful that seeing raw meat, snakes, live frogs tied with rubber bands, and much more at the market, daily, is old news. Thankful that the scents of incense burning, the dangerously piled up phone lines above the streets, the pig head sitting on the spirit house, are not things I am having to see for the first time anymore. I feel more relaxed, finally. Our house feels like home, the kinks of creating and meeting the needs of our family are finally smoothing out. Figuring out the plan, the structure, the way things work around here took a while. I feel like at some points throughout life here, the vision God has given us for our personal lives, the callings, the visions were put to the test. It's hard when you are no longer surrounded by those that share the same heart as you do, that encourage you and speak into you. Then, when you have very few people to 'talk' things out with. You start to doubt.
I don't know where I am going with all of this, but I just felt like writing. Sometimes it is hard to not let 'outside' influences change the way you think!! Even if they be 'good' outside influences. God has called each and every one of us, He has a plan for each of our lives, and no matter what the cost...what the sacrifice, we have to hold on to that vision. It doesn't matter that there is no one around me LIKE me or no one around you LIKE you! We are still called! We must listen to the voice of the Lord and keep walking the walk. We can't let naysayers get us to second guessing the call, the vision that God has put before us. We can't let time, difficulty walking the vision out, lack of faith, doubt, etc...begin to steer us the wrong way.
I am so in love with my Creator, and so thankful for His patience with me as I walk out life. I love the way He gently corrects my wrong turns, wrong attitudes, my lack of patience. It is always so gentle and so loving.

Lord, help me to correct my children the way you correct me, and love them the way you love me!
Be encouraged today to continue to walk out the vision for your life that the Lord has given YOU! Don't just follow what others are doing, make sure you are following what YOU are suppose to do. You are an individual and unlike anyone else on the face of the planet. That is GOOD and that is GOD! And, if you do not know what that vision is, seek His face--You are called!! He will direct you!

Hosea 10:1 says, 'Israel is an empty vine, he bringeth forth fruit unto himself.' Let's don't bring forth fruit unto ourselves, it will only bring emptiness. Psalm 128:3 calls us to be a 'fruitful vine'. A PROLIFIC vine! Where are you called to bear fruit?

Where Would I Be?

2011-01-06T07:17:00.000-08:00

Hey!
Well, we survived the Christmas season! We had such a fun, exciting, joyful time celebrating Jesus this year. And, we were all worn out! The children were so blessed and really enjoyed the season. In fact, we were still listening to Christmas music tonight in the car! I did get all of the decorations put away this week. We are now the proud owners of two more creatures...a hedgehog named 'Sonic' and a sugar glider named 'Sugar'. They are adorable little animals and have already brought much delight to our home.
The outreach at our home on the 18th went very good. About 40 people showed up, including children. We ate, had introductions, showed a short video with Franklin Graham and a Thai lady gave her testimony. Then, we played Santa Swap. It was around 9 pm at that point and people began to leave. So, with those that remained we sang a few carols. We know seeds were sown and feel very thankful for so many friends to be able to share the gospel with. There is one elderly man specifically that has shown interest in studying the Bible. Please pray for him, his name is 'Boonrock'. The plan is to start studying with him monthly or more if he is willing. He already has been studying the Bible on his own.

On Christmas Eve morning John shared the Christmas Story with around 3,000 students and staff at Ratchasima II school. He did a wonderful job speaking the story in both Thai and English. There was so much noise and distraction with so many people plus my 4 children that the program was over before I knew it. We tried to video it, but it's such poor quality. Believing again that much of the teachings of Jesus are being planted in fertile soil!!! Many of these students are hearing from John about the Lord on a regular basis. He teaches English at the school and has been teaching about God. He explained to them a few weeks ago how it is very impolite to say, 'Oh My G**!' The students couldn't believe it. Then, he was able to talk about their king and how they wouldn't dare blaspheme the king, proceeding to explain that God is the Creator of the whole universe and when saying that we are disrespecting Him! What Excitement!!!! And...not knowing what God is going to do in these precious peoples lives!!! Believe and pray with us for their souls!!!

On a personal level...God has really been bringing up more things in my heart and life that I was pushing down. I knew I was, but it just seemed better to hold it in, sometimes it just makes life easier (but does it?). It really does have to come out, so, after the holidays, I spent some time dealing with things. I feel so much better. I love God so much and love how He is always right here, so close...to help me with life!! I just can't imagine life without Him. I was listening to a song yesterday...it was saying, 'Where would I be if you hadn't died on that cross and shed the blood?' I don't even want to THINK about where I would be! Thank you JESUS! Life is so wonderful.

You Just Can't Be Replaced!

2010-12-14T22:26:00.000-08:00

I am sitting here right now, just crying, missing all my wonderful, close, loving family members and friends, the same ones I always squawk about:). I know, God has called us here, He will take me through. Somehow, right this moment, it isn't really making things easier. I think it started this morning when I skyped with my bestie...it just caused reality to set in once again. Sometimes I just put it out of my mind, the things we are missing, other times I try to stay focused on what God is doing in the big picture and how blessed we are. Either way, it's just more difficult at certain times than others. Knowing that my family is going to all be together in a few days and all of the warm fuzzies that Christmas time brings to the heart, just causes my heart sadness. There are friends here, and I have my favorite family with me(my immediate)--thank the Lord...so, I will get off of here and go muster up some potpourri, put on some carols, and choose to make the most of this season. The outreach is Saturday and then we need to finish up the rest of our shopping. Thank you my wonderful online journal for being my ear right now :). And, to anyone else reading...just give those closest to you extra love this season...believe me, if they weren't around, you would realize what you have.

Merry Christmas!

Jolly Jumpbuck in the Tuckerbag!

2010-12-09T00:28:00.000-08:00

Hey!

  I hope you are all having a snuggly, Christmas'y', toasty week. This is such a wonderful season. Celebrating Jesus is the best time of year, no doubt! Yes, it does get busy, but I think planning, is the best way to enjoy the season. I am writing from halfway around the world, so I don't have as much going on in a culture that doesn't get really down with celebrating, but it is still busy.
  Please be in prayer about two things. One, we are having a Christmas party here at our home on the 18th. We are focusing on the people in our community of Joho that we have had short or long-term relationships with over the past 3-4 years. Pastor Yawd and his family are going to work with us on this. We are going to have a simple meal, play a game, share Jesus, and send everyone home with a gift. Then, on the morning of Christmas Eve, John has been invited to share the Christmas Story with the students/staff of Ratchasima II. That means anywhere from 2,000-3,000 people (more or less?). We are very excited about both of these open doors in the community. If you would please join in prayer with us concerning these events we would greatly appreciate it. God is ALIVE, working on the hearts of the people everywhere! Pray that the hearts of the Thai people will be soft, that their ears will be able to understand, and that they will have understanding. We are expecting great things!!

  Well, our tree is far from perfect, it is actually quite annoying, but that's not what the season is all about anyway. I do enjoy that part of it though, and I have had to get really creative with it. There are 11 plugs into our one strip outlet, the lights all do something different. If I could only get them still :). Nonetheless, we are thankful and happy. At least I can get white lights! I decorated this year with spices and dried fruits. It is so beautiful to me! Wish you could see it. The garland above the kitchen sink is my favorite, by far. I used some kind of cool-looking twine and strung it with dried bael fruit (the juice around here is one of my faves), sat oranges on it and added some cinnamon down the sides...HA-here's a pic:

So far, we have enjoyed 'Elf' and 'Holiday Inn' during the Christmas time movie nights. It's been fun. If you haven't seen Holiday Inn, it's an oldie, and definitely one of our favorites. There ya go...a little peek of life from around here lately!

Love you all and MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Egyptian Pyramid Replicas

2010-12-03T07:49:00.000-08:00

We are trying to do one fun, crafty project per term that goes along with any topic that we have studied. The children chose Egypt and the pyramids. I found this on a blog somewhere called affectioknit, I think? Anyway, tweak it to meet your needs. This is how our project turned out.

Step 1:
We just did a little math, to make sure everything was going to be even and then traced, cut, and folded.

Step 2: Next we folded the cardboard and used masking tape to connect all sides.

Step 3:

Using yarn, we glued it around the pyramids. (I let my toddler 'paint' the glue all over the pyramids--that was FUN for him). When the project is finished the yarn helps it look like 'bricks'.

Step 4: Paper Mache...let it dry for a couple of days or longer, unless you live in Thailand, then it will be finished in approx. 24 hours or less :)

**While doing paper mache, be sure to leave two of the sides uncovered where you can easily cut the yarn in order to OPEN your pyramid.

Step 5: We painted them brown, let it dry, painted glue on again, then poured sand all over them. I think you could probably skip the 'paint them brown' part.

Step 6: Find a sturdy piece of cardboard to use as your base. The one I chose was very thin and the pyramids ended up to heavy, especially once you add the tomb on the inside. If you mix a glue with blue food coloring, when the river dries it is shiny and 'fun' looking. We made a couple of boats out of grass to float in the river.

(Please excuse my sweet potatoes ;)

Step 7: We made salt dough, cut them into triangles to fit inside the pyramids. They then constructed a burial chamber, the air shafts, the treasure compartment. You can get as detailed as you want, even down to labeling everything. We chose NOT to label, mainly because we had already spent 3 weeks working on the project and it was Thanksgiving week, time to bake!

This is the inside of M's pyramid. I forgot to mention that we looked up their names in hieroglyphics and added that to the inside. This was by far their favorite part of the project. Getting to paint everything, wrap the 'body' and just finishing it.

It was a fun project, a little messy. I recommend doing it all outside and be sure to have a sturdy base. Oh, yea, we added capstones as well. We rigged a pulley system with twine and brass brads in order to open and close the pyramid. Just play with it and figure out what works best for you.

Happy Building!
Sandy

Leave your comments and thoughts please. They encourage me!

Come On Sandy--Keep the Hat On!!!

2010-11-30T23:18:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas from Thailand!! We are working really hard around here to make it seem like Christmas. It is cooler and windy, but definitely not cold and snowy. I have heard the children on and off, murmuring this or that about the weather and how the season just doesn't seem like Christmas. Then, how no one tells them 'Merry Christmas' around here. We are still practicing our 'kind' hat wearing around the home. Seems as if we are all busy trying to do school, but wanting to be in 'holiday' mode, and that is hard. Who gets excited about working when it's Christmas time? I am just trying to hang on for 3 more weeks, stay focused, and diligent and in the meantime, BE KIND!
Why is it so hard? John and I were discussing this very question just a few days ago. Us being here in Thailand, makes for excessive amounts of time WITH one another. So, we have to practice kindness during 'at home' hours, which are 24/7. This is unlike America, where you have various outings to go to, with OTHER family and friends. We are TOGETHER ALL THE TIME...except our date night, which is 3.5 hours a week.
This is challenging, at the same time I am very thankful for this test. It is teaching and showing all of us our weaknesses. John and I were saying how if we can't be kind and show love in the home, what is the point of trying to spread the love of Jesus to others we don't know. We can't be too hard on ourselves when we fail 5, 10, 25% of the time. God forgives, children forgive, we forgive. The point is, we have to pick up, turn around, and do better the next time. Lord, help me today to continue to walk in kindness and love towards those VERY close to me :).
This is just a little of what is on my heart today, wishing I had time to write more, post pics, etc. The two babies are down and I need to run. Time to go read aloud--Story of the Greeks and Our Island Story to the oldest.
Merry Christmas to you all!!!
Wish you could see all my lights on the tree, or the plug-in, it is such a sight. I have 11 plugs in one strip outlet!!! It is hysterical, but I believe it is safe, just a little red-neck. At least I have lights, right?

...'but the greatest of these is love'. 1 Cor. 13

Gentleness, Kindness, Soft Tones...in the Midst of Storms

2010-11-16T23:05:00.000-08:00

I love to wake up around 5:30 or 6:00 am, the house is calm and quiet...maybe I can get my Bible study in and take a nice walk. Lately, most mornings around that time, I hear the pitter patter of little toesies, and then a climb into my bed. On to preparing breakfast, then school, then lunch, then school, then naps, then dinner, and a lot in between :). In the midst of the spills, the cries for 'mommy', the questions about school, the trying to read aloud to the oldest while the youngest are dropping bombs and flying planes all around us...sometimes my brain feels extremely overstimulated. To say it nicely, this week I have had to repent over and over for a raw tone of voice, for a lack of patience, for a lack of smiling. It has made me so sad. I laid in bed last night, tossing and turning, unable to rest due to my 'rotten' attitude. I love this time of my life, why is it so hard to not get emotionally involved in my chidren's childishness. Instead, I begin acting childish myself! And then, wonder where they get it from. I happened to stop by http://flourishingmother.blogspot.com/, just before writing this...and was so blessed by one of her post. So, I will paste a small section of it. Hopefully, it will bless you as it has me. And, Praise the Lord that His mercies are made new everyday!!

Putting on kindness:

1. Practice kindness.

2. Recognize that whatever comes from my mouth is born in my heart.

3. Allow no corrupt talk, in any form, to come out of my mouth.

4. Learn to love kindness.

5. Recognize the difference between childish immaturity and sin.

Pursuing gentleness:

1. Smile at your children.

2. Demonstrate constant affection toward your children.

3. Never speak in tones of sarcasm.

4. Do not raise your voice.

5. *Practice* speaking gently. 

6. Adorn yourself with gentleness and a quiet spirit.

7. Utilize your husband as an accountability partner in helping you grow in gentleness.

Be especially cautious of your words, tone of voice, and countenance as you speak to your husband. Your words should be wholesome and edifying. Your tone of voice should be gentle and calm. Your countenance (a smile or pleasant expression) should show respect even when you disagree with him or he is obviously sinning. God will help you if you turn to Him. He is the "help of your countenance, and your God." (Psalm 42:11)

Be blessed this week and may God be with us all as we strive to always practice kindness in the midst of every storm, no matter how big or how small!

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Today...

2010-11-11T16:39:00.000-08:00

Today is Friday, I love Fridays. Mainly, because it we have group day and it is so much fun. We have been working on Egyptian Pyramid replicas all week and today we will add some more finishing touches. Of course, I will have pictures of the whole thing soon :). We have recitation, hymn study, folk song, corrections from math, science tests, and several other things.

( Moriah is sitting here in my lap nursing on and off. I have to admit, some days I think to myself, 'enough already'). I am trying to stay focused and on task today. We have had a busy week. As I am working on our Term 2 schedules, which we begin next week, I have realized that I have not been consistently reading our 'Handbook of Nature Study' on Fridays. I just forgot! So, today-HONS!! I will not forget. And, nature hiking---definitely on the schedule. The weather is wonderful, so we will head out on bicycles soon.

We started "The Ten Commandments" last night, made it to intermission, so we will finish that. And, working on some ornaments, as I can't wait to get the tree up! Needing to plan out Thanksgiving Dinner...yippee!!

Okay, just a quick post to let you hold me accountable to my plans :). Just remember, nothing ever goes as planned, but it is better to have one- a plan :), expect the worst and HOPE for the best!!

Happy Homeschooling Day!!

Sandy

Exciting Times!

2010-11-09T06:41:00.000-08:00

There is such a stirring in my spirit...with all of the disasters taking place around the world, one can't help knowing that God is moving among us all. Expectancy is high! I just can't wait for the presence of God to fall so strongly in Thailand, for revival to come...for the lost to come to Him! Devastation is all around, desperation is on every corner...please continue praying. Pray that the hearts and visions of missionaries around the globe and especially in Thailand will stay on fire, filled up, and ready to pour out to the people. Pray for strength that missionaries will not grow weary, complacent, and content but, that we will stay hungry, expectant, prayerful and mindful! Pray that the hearts of the Thai people will be softened and eager to hear the word of the Lord, salvation, grace, and love.

Much love to you all!!

Sandy

My Sins Were Red Like Scarlet

2010-11-03T22:51:00.000-07:00

LIFE AND MINISTRY: As you all know, this has been a year of testing for our family. We have survived and 'we are singing'!!! Praise the Lord...God is good and faithful! We are moving into the 'winter' season in Thailand and, of course, CHRISTMAS. So, celebrating Jesus, family, friends, cool weather and cozy nights around the fire pit= EXCITEMENT!!

Ministry is going good. God is in control, we are continuing to pray and believe God to shake this nation. Lately, we have had the privilege of going deeper into relationships with friends from all over the world! I finally feel like the whole 'culture' difficulties have lifted and now I am living!!! I have been surviving...now I am LIVING! Yeah God. It has been a trying 3 years and I am thankful to have 3 years behind me :). The children are always full of questions concerning Thai language. If they hear a new word, in English, Gabe says, 'Daddy is that Thai or English?' It is so cute to see Moriah as she 'Y's' the Thai people (that is their greeting). Glad to see everyone still growing in the language.

Please continue to lift up the Thai people in your prayers! The floods that have hit have been devastating to so many...(I will post some pics of flood relief efforts). We were able to help some friends move last week. The water line in their apartments was up to their neck!!! Thank God friends were able to move their things as the water rushed in. Clean-up continues around our city...we even received another care package yesterday. Amazing job the gov't has done!

HOMESCHOOLING: Going absolutely wonderful!! Having a blast! Lots of 'outdoor' school days right now. We have an aquarium full of snails and two fish on the picnic table, we had 3 'sea' snakes at the beginning of the week for 2 days (set them free), and an oversize turtle. Needless to say...everyone is in an outdoor mood. So fun! I love seeing the excitement in my children's eyes as they learn. They are taking in all that is around them and asking a gazillion questions :).

The best for last...

HEALING: Isaiah 44:22 says "I have swept away your offenses like a cloud,

your sins like the morning mist. Return to me, for I have redeemed you."

Praise God! This has ministered to me so much this week! God redeems us from all of our mess!! I have been carrying with me, STILL, sins from my past...from my childhood on into adulthood. And---NO MORE! God has swept them away like a cloud...they are like the morning mist! Hallelujah!!! I don't have to walk around full of shame, doubt, insecurity, low self-confidence, and all the other mess the enemy likes to see me in. I am a princess of the most HIGH God!! He loves me as I am. So easy for some to wipe the slate and move on, so difficult for others...causing pain, deep- rooted pain, bitterness, and resentment. Let's be free!

God is good- His mercies are new every day-

paraphrase: my sins were red like scarlet, He washed me white in His mercies!!! YAHOO!!!!!

AFFIRMATION: I am forgiven! God thinks I am beautiful! I am strong because Jesus lives in me! I am confident in who I am because I am who God made me to be, I am not walking alone, I am following His every command...so, why lack confidence?

Love you all!!!

coming soon....furlough April-August 2011 :)

Sandy

Life is so Rich...

2010-09-15T08:39:00.000-07:00

Last week we found a frog, dried up, and of course, dead in our vehicle!! Gabe had forgotten his 'pet', and we could smell it for a few days. Moriah...she is the cutest little thing, dancing every time she hears music, with her hands in the air, praising the Lord-- priceless! Madaline, her head always in a book, and when it's not, creating a masterpiece from something. Whether it be food, painting, drawing, or pottery. What life she brings to our home! Lake, cracking jokes non-stop, making everyone laugh. Dancing with his legs out like Napoleon Dynamite and playing his recorder as loud as possible throughout the house! Who could live without the never-ending daily joy that these little history-makers are bringing?

I am very thankful for this season we are in. Sensing the peace, joy, and happiness around our home. Life seems so rich, everyone so happy. The children are learning so well right now and always talking of things that matter, I like that. I don't like 'twaddle' talk, makes me feel as if we are wasting time. I love sitting around the family meal table experiencing food, fun, and fellowship together. When no one gets up because the conversation is so fun and enriching! I pray for more of those meals. They mean so much, to see everyone with big smiles and each child bringing their piece of the conversation to the table.

I miss America at times, and think why are we staying so long before taking a furlough. Right now, though, I realize that us staying here longer is allowing our family to settle more and to make this our home. That is the sense of peace I am feeling. It is just so warm and cozy around here now...something I have missed for three years. Yes, it has taken that long to make our house feel like 'home' again.

Blessings to you all as we move into new seasons! Here we are leaving the rainy season and headed to the winter (semi-cool) season. And, we all know it is fall, or football season in America!

Psalm 18:16- somewhere around 30 (The Message)

'God made my life complete when I placed all the pieces before him.

When I got my act together, he gave me a fresh start.

Now I'm alert to God's ways; I don't take God for granted.

Every day I review the ways he works; I try not to miss a trick.

I feel put back together, and I'm watching my step.

God rewrote the text of my life when I opened the book of my heart to his eyes.'

I LOVE THIS! May it bless you like it has me!!

Love to you all!!

Sandy

Flora of Thailand

2010-08-29T04:39:00.000-07:00

We have had such a great time on our nature hikes lately. We are studying from Anna Botsford Comstock's Handbook of Nature Study. It has been so fun and interesting for the children. We are going to put just a few pictures of our flowers along with their scientific names, just for your information :).

This is a beautiful flowering bush/tree that grows all around our little neighborhood, as do the others we photographed. This is one of many of the mangrove plant species recorded in Thailand. There is a total of 87 true species. This is called RED TERUNTUM (Lumnitzera littorea), it grows about 3 metres tall, while the ones that bloom white grow around 6 m. There is no fragrance, so the children have concluded that the bees and butterflies are attracted for the bright red color. Madaline seems to think it could be related to honeysuckle...kind of taste like it. Guess we need to find that out next.

This is FRANGIPANE or PLUMERIA (Nerium oleander). There are many colors, mostly we see white or pink, this is a mix. Is the fragrance from this flower the essence of the Bath and Body 'Plumeria' series, I would bet that it is. The fragrance is wonderful and is stronger at night. This is used mostly in Buddhist temples for worship. The tree can grow up to 8 metres. It is pollinated by the Sphinx moth. The bees, butterflies, etc...definitely come for the fragrance and probably the color as well.
This is called Cassia fistula, The GOLDEN SHOWER TREE, or THAIS, it is the national tree and its flower is the national flower. It blooms in summer. This flower has a subtle fragrance, so the children decided that bees and butterflies come for the color and the fragrance.

A little glimpse into our hiking lately. It has really been a blast and something we look forward to all week.

Hope you all have a blessed week! Happy Learning!!

It's all for HIM!!!

Sandy

'...He Will Uphold the Cause of His Servant...'

2010-08-22T02:38:00.000-07:00

A dear friend read the verses of 1 Kings 8:56-61 to me this week as we were skyping, as something that the Lord had given her to encourage her, and then in return shared it with me to encourage and strengthen me. At the time she asked of my thoughts, but, with children ready for bed and the grumpiness that sometimes goes along with that, I was unable to even process the verses at the time. So, here are my thoughts and feelings...

'And may these words of mine, which I have prayed before the Lord, be near to the Lord our God day and night, that he may uphold the cause of his servant and the cause of his people Israel according to each day's need.'
1 Kings 8:59

I have been so encouraged and strengthened with these verses! Then, we went to church today, and the service in Thai, was adding to these verses. The feelings are so good, I can truly tell that people have been praying for me. Thank you all for your prayers! God is so good and I know that the prayers we all have prayed are near to our God day and night!!! He is upholding the cause of this servant and meeting each day's need! Praise the Lord!

Of course, we all have a cause, purpose, and destiny. Some days we may not feel that we are doing anything to fulfill our destinies. Let us have faith for only each day's needs. 'Lord, I need strength today to homeschool my children with a GREAT attitude!! I need strength today, to get out of bed and meditate on Your words. I need strength today to get out of bed...period! I need strength today...you fill in the blank!

Lord, help us to only focus on each day...not to get carried away with our entire situation! We have a cause! We have a destiny!! Let us walk in it with our heads held high, our feet upon the Rock, unwavering, steadfast, joyful, abundant! We will fulfill the destiny the Lord has for us if we only remain in Him!

Thank you Father!

Much Love!!

**this is a painting by Carl Larsson**

'He will uphold the cause of His servant'

Furlough...when is that again?

2010-08-15T03:22:00.001-07:00

Today, I just really need to sit down and write. So, my online journal...here is my world. I have had such a wonderful, happy summer break from homeschooling. Especially after Lake's accident and seeing the progress he has made. God is so good! We have been here, going on three years now, or about four. I have this longing still, is it going to stay here forever? Is it the longing for my family and friends? Yes, I do long to see the Thai people serving our God and loving Him with all that is within them. Is it the longing to feel connected to those around me? I am just not content and when I finally feel like I am about to 'get' it, then, I suddenly feel it again. Life is good here, the family's needs are being met, John and I are doing good, but something just isn't right. I would love to talk to some veteran missionaries, you know, 20-30 years on the field. I think I will when the opportunity arises. In the meantime, does one who moves to a foreign land ever feel REALLY at home? And yes, I know, some have said, 'don't put yourself in a bubble'. I am not! I DON'T speak Thai fluently, nor do I feel like it is my calling at this point--to leave the home and study full-time. I enjoy speaking the language and would love to know every nook and cranny of Thai, down to the humor, but right now I don't and it really isn't an option for me. I have four beautiful children and a house and homeschool to run...so that will have to wait until I am an empty nester.
Honestly, I really, really, miss my close family and friends. The ones that share the same vision as you, the ones that share your heart, the ones that love to sit and talk about the marvelous works of our Creator, the ones that just tug on your heart strings, the ones that challenge you, the ones that encourage you, the ones that will correct you, the ones that will listen, hug, and cry with you. Do you know what I mean? Can you relate to that at all? Can you relate to being tired of feeling like a movie star every where you go? People watching your every move, people watching the salad dressing dripping from the sides of your mouth? People just saying 'Hi' all the time, day in/day out...but, never really getting to KNOW anyone. Okay, well...I am ready for the people to come and know Christ already, where I can have some more friends. I have a handful here and I do thank the Lord for them, they are wonderful and truly a blessing to my life. I hope I don't sound like I am complaining? I don't want to complain, I am a little forlorn today.
Overall, life is sooooo wonderful!!!! My husband is AMAZING and my children are such a blessing to us both!! We are, as a family, so happy!!! Being missionaries on the other side of the world, just isn't easy!

There---

I love you all!
Sandy

Lake's Progress

2010-06-16T00:04:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone,
Just a quick update on Lake. He is doing good with his physical therapy. We are all still believing God for the miracle of complete recovery. I have to admit, it broke my heart today to see him unable to grasp the macaroni and move it from one container to the next...his arm hanging limp. On the other hand, I have smiles and joy, knowing that he is alive and well. We went to the park today and he was all smiles...we took his sling off and I encouraged him to try and play with his arm down. He only wants to leave it in a folded position, which, according to the therapists, is not good. He needs to begin using those muscles so that they do not atrophy.
Please continue to pray for him. He is strong and brave and I know that he will regain the strength he needs. In the meantime, I am thinking I should teach him to write with his left hand this year. Then, if he does regain the strength of all fingers we can just pick up where he left off, but we need to prepare...Just my thoughts. As we speak, I am not allowed into the kitchen. The children are icing my bday cake and decorating! What fun! I love having 4 children...they are so thoughtful and full of life!
We have been getting ready for the upcoming school year this week. So far, we have organized our library, decorated our nature notebooks, organized the science notebooks, and purchased the other necessary journals and albums. One of the things I am most excited about is their artist albums! After studying each artist the children will be given their own 4x6 portraits to place in the album, they will then write the name of the artist and the title of the work! I think I need to make my own :)!
I have been soaking up a wonderful blog called 'Higher Up and Further In' and have really come across some wonderful ideas! If you are a homeschooling mother, especially a Charlotte Mason one, I highly recommend this blog. Also, Ambleside Online! These two resources have encouraged me and motivated me! I can't wait to get to school :)! I must give credit to my wonderful BF, Mrs. Ashley Bausch, for her blog-finding abilities! You is supa-fly! Of course, these two blogs don't hold a candle to her, 'Undistracted Devotion'. And, I really mean that! Go check it out!
Okay, so life is super beautiful this week...I have turned 33, and I am not ashamed! Thirty-three, a wonderful husband who loves me, four of my very own children, and great family and friends! Wowsers, Praise the Lord! How blessed I am! The weather around here is phenomenal, there are butterflies everywhere, and yea, it is hot, but who cares...it is still amazing! The wind is blowing and there are so many birds chirping, most of them are sparrows, doves, and pigeons, but the sound is just great. I wish I could invite you over, into my air-conditioned room...that would be fun, but until then...Have a super blessed week!!

A quick poem! (actually, it is not really a poem, just encouraging words...wish I could give credit to someone, but I don't even know where it came from...probably Above Rubies??, it's on the front of my school notebook)

BEING THE HEART OF YOUR HOME

We make our home a...
A house of prayer,
A household of Faith,
A habitation of Love,
A haven of peace,
A happening place of joy and laughter,
A hub of activity,
A home of hospitality,
A home of happiness,
A home of harmony,
A home of holiness,
A home of humility,
A home of hugs,
A home of health and healing, and
A home of hearty food and fellowship, and
A hearthstone where all delight to come
We hedge it about with truth.
We heal broken hearts.
We help one another.
We heap blessings upon one another.
We hold fast the WORD OF LIFE.
We honor the elderly.
We HATE evil and LOVE righteousness.
We encourage hard work.
We provide an atmosphere for hearing the voice of GOD.
We fill it with heavenly praises.
We love and appreciate our husbands.
And of course, we make it a little taste of heaven.
KEEP YOUR MOTHER HEART BEATING STRONGLY IN YOUR HOME!!

Lots of LOVE!!!
Sandy

What is True Freedom?

2010-06-03T01:24:00.000-07:00

I read this in the Message today and love the way it is written:

Romans 6
'...I'm using this freedom language because it's easy to picture. You can readily recall, can't you, how at one time you did just what you felt like doing-not caring about others, not caring about God-the worse your life became and the less freedom you had? And how much different is it now as you live in God's freedom, your lives healed and expansive in holiness?
As long as you did what you felt like doing, ignoring God, you didn't have to bother with right thinking or right living, or right anything for that matter. But do you call that a free life? What did you get out of it? Nothing you're proud of now. Where did it get you? A dead end.
But now that you've found you don't have to listen to sin tell you what to do, and have discovered the delight of listening to God telling you, what a surprise! A whole, healed, put-together life right now, with more and more of life on the way! Work hard for sin your whole life and your pension is death. But God's gift is real life, eternal life, delivered by Jesus, our Master.'

I am really learning a lot about emotions. I know we hear it all the time, not to let your emotions rule you, but my goodness, it can be such test. We have to control our emotions...the good ones, use for encouragement, etc...being sure that we channel those to others around us in order to edify them. Negative ones...control them, don't sin, don't run off at the mouth...just don't say a word. What a challenge for us! If any of you have won this battle, please send me some tips.
I am so thankful to be walking through this right now, it's about time. The passage above can be interpreted to teach us in so many different areas. Today, for me, I am grabbing a hold of, '...not listening to sin tell me what to do.' I may feel angry, frustrated, agitated, etc...those are normal, natural emotions...it is how I handle that. And, I love the part, 'with more and more life on the way'. Amen!! There is more and more life, and life abundantly!!! I will not do what I feel like doing, like complaining or whining...I WILL bother with right thinking and right living--- I want to!! That is TRUE FREEDOM!!!

Oh yea, and guess what...it is not good to be emotionless!!! So, for all of you out there who just sit on it, well...this is for you too. God gave us emotions and they need to be dealt with.

Love you all!
Sandy

*** Hey---good 'ole fashion Chicken -n- Dumplin's is on the menu tonight!! Come on over :)!

Feeling a Little Crafty

2010-05-31T22:21:00.000-07:00

Greetings my Friends!!

We had such a tragic accident recently involving, Lake, our 7 year old. He was playing hide-n-seek and ran through a plate glass door. This was such a serious accident concerning the use of his right hand, because he severed 2 inches of his brachial artery, severed his medial nerve, and damaged his bicep and pectoral muscles. If you would, please continue or begin to lift him up in your prayers. I have so many thoughts right now concerning this accident, the way I have handled it emotionally, etc... but, I do not want to entertain most of them and don't know exactly what to do with the others.

The fact is, my son is going to live, he is doing great, and that brings joy to my life!

Exactly a week later, we celebrated the 31st birthday of my husband and the 11th birthday of my daughter. We had a great party and it was a blessing to celebrate!! They are both wonderful people!! I am blessed!

I have been on a mad hunt for burlap for almost a month now, and what do you know, I can't find any!! I have one more place to check in Bangkok, but, when that will happen, I am unsure. I am wanting to make some cute, little DIY curtains for the kitchen. So, if you know where, in Thailand, I can find burlap, would you please email me :). Check out this cute wreath too, I need burlap!!! http://meandmyscraps.blogspot.com/2010/02/burlap-wreaths-take-one.html

I know people want to hear from me, so I am trying my best to write...but, I really don't know what to say. The Lord has been having me read Ephesians 4-5 over and over for a couple of months now. What I am getting out of it seems so elementary, but I believe that if we will apply it to our lives, it can transform the atmosphere of our homes and our relationships. My Bible is n't beside me and the children are asleep in both rooms where they are, so I will paraphrase.

We should let NO unwholesome talk come out of our mouths! If it doesn't edify or build up, keep you mouth shut. There should be no coarse joking. Our words should always mean something. That means don't ramble on and on about something insignificant. We are wasting time.

I feel like I am such a rambler. I can be in the middle of a conversation with someone and just catch myself telling every detail. What's the point? If someone tells me they like my shirt, I am there saying, 'Oh, it's old, I bought it...here, etc...', instead of just receiving the complement and moving on. Don't you enjoy those few people whom you sit down with and the conversations are so rich, edifying, encouraging, and uplifting? Those are the relationships that are so fulfilling.

Do the words that come out of our mouths edify others always? I feel like I have written something similar to this before, but if so...these are the things the Lord is working in me still. I feel like a child, I still haven't grabbed it and kept it.

I get so frustrated sometimes with 5 voices needing mommy, and then something major, like my son's accident happens, and I feel so strong and able to withstand the pressure. I believe that we should strive, at least I should, to be a quiet, gentle, reserved, but open and honest woman of God. Lord, let every word that falls from my lips land with meaning and purpose. Help me to be quiet. Help me to speak gently, at all times, to those I love the most.

Within these last few days, I believe the Lord is refreshing my memory of how important motherhood is. You know how something is when you have done it for several years, it sort of becomes monotonous, you get used to it. We shouldn't get use to motherhood or being a good wife. These callings need to remain fresh on our minds, we need to continue to feed this calling with the word and the encouragement of other God-fearing women.

Speaking of God-fearing women...a wonderful woman in my life named Cathy Flynn, has a new blog...go check it out http://www.modernorange.com/2010/05/recipe-for-disaster.html

Life is really good with GOD, He is amazing, He brings light and life to my life! He is the source of all true joy, peace, and happiness. He thinks all things are beautiful, no matter where we have been. He forgives continuously...He loves always...and well, He is just the only reason for living.

God Bless You all!!!

Sandy

A Call Out to You Milanites!!

2010-05-16T07:32:00.000-07:00

Hey Everyone!

I have had all of my close friends, friends, acquaintances, old teachers, even the cashiers at Wal-Mart, on my heart for the last 3 weeks. Well, since the death of Chad. I stood at my kitchen sink washing dishes, worshipping with Kim Walker to 'We Cry Out', when I felt the Holy Spirit come down. I began to pray earnestly for my friends in Milan, you that I have many memories with, you that I have only a few memories with, and you that I barely know. I haven't had much free time, so I have been unable to blog...then, there were two more tragedies that occurred affecting the city of Milan. I cannot tell you, nor articulate to you the strength and peace that comes following an INTIMATE relationship with the Lord. I say 'intimate', because that is what HE wants. He doesn't want you to 'talk about Him like He's not in the room', He wants you to 'talk right to Him'! We are a chosen generation...we are special and we are called to reach out to those lost and dying, called to reach out to them before Hell does. Please get up, wake up, pick up your heads...answer the calling of the Lord in your spirits! It will be the greatest decision you will ever make!! Stop being selfish and thinking You can live life without Him!! He is everything!! He IS what life is all about. It is not about the check you bring home each month, the newest movie out, the latest fashion, the latest gossip...stop living the "American Dream". Stop living a soap opera! Get a clue!! The world is falling apart, completely around the globe... IT is way past time to WAKE UP!! GET out of your little bubble!

Now for the love...I do, I love you all so much! I have love in my heart for you I barely even know! No kidding, I can feel the love for the little granny greeting me at Wal-Mart! I miss so many things about our small town, what a connection we all really and truly have. You don't realize how special Milan is until you don't live there. On top of that add living in Thailand with a huge language barrier and people you barely know for 3 years! I love you guys so very much and pray that you understand my heart when reading this!! FREEDOM AND PEACE AND LOVE is YOURS, and HAPPINESS in CHRIST JESUS!! (and He is super cool :) , for any of you out there who might think otherwise) He is the most popular, the fad, the newest, the latest, the BEST!!

Sincerely,

Sandy

Life is Busy Here Too

2010-03-26T02:20:00.000-07:00

The weather has been so beautiful here lately. Hot, in the 100's some days (still gorgeous), and today in the 80's and extremely comfortable. We have been running and running for about 4 weeks now, but thankful for the many opportunities the Lord has given us.

We took a retreat with Church of Blessing group, which is the place where John preaches once a month. It was a wonderful time of fun and relaxation for the two older children and John. I spent the 3 days taking care of Gabriel and Moriah who were sick. There has been a sick bug around our home for 11 weeks now, thankfully this is the first few days where everyone has been well. And, I am very grateful! Praise the Lord!! John has travelled to a village church about 5 hours away and really enjoyed seeing the people in love with Jesus there. He begins teaching English at the army base tomorrow. We will also begin a cell group meeting with the church plant on Wednesday.

Moriah turned one on the 24th and we took a day trip to the zoo and the swimming park with 3 of the children's thai friends. Everyone enjoyed themselves! It is so hard for me to believe it has already been a year since Moriah was born. I have been reflecting on the past year this week, because I remember soooo vividly the night that she came into this world. God has truly used her in my life to teach me so much!

Moriah means 'God is my Teacher' and literally, every month of this year I can look back in my journal and tell you the things He has taught me! The moment she was entering into the world He spoke, 'Do not be afraid, I am her teacher and will teach her how to enter into this world'. To hear those words, brought immediate peace. If you are unfamiliar with the birthing story...please email me and I will tell of the miraculous! I am sitting here trying to think of the most profound thing He has taught me, but...it has all been so revelatory and so neccessary for my walk with Him.

Right now, I am feeling the unending, never-failing, love of God. He knows, understands, accepts, and loves who I am. He knows the mistakes I am going to make even before I make them. The short fuse I have with the children, the smart tone of voice, the lack of gentle understanding...and He loves me and is there to encourage me, not discourage me. He sees my heart and is always waiting on me, before I even go to Him. He desires me more than I could possibly desire Him! This leads me to our children.

Shouldn't we always be encouraging to them...even in the midst of difficult circumstances...you know, the time when the milk is spilled all over the floor, the baby has a stinky, the toddler is crying because the wheel broke on the truck, the 7 year old is cleaning the milk with a towel :/, and the oldest is in a deep conversation about the teeth of the baleen whale...and my brain/flesh says, 'AHHHHHH'! And, I feel like yelling it, and I do...too much! The Lord is always there to encourage me and keep me from getting down on myself. Lord, help us to encourage our children during these times and not discourage them by our own responses. They are 'raw' flesh as my friend put it...their minds have not been renewed yet. Help us to treat them as the Lord treats us after we lose our tone or our control! He is there with open arms.

Days and days go by, and I long for the relationships I have with friends and family in America. Some days I cannot believe that I haven't talked to 'so-and-so' in a year...or gone with her to wherever...It is hard to believe somedays, that I LIVE here, I am not going anywhere. And, on those days, that are forever long...I am forced even more to press into God. HE is all I have!! I have learned even more to trust in Him, to lean on Him, to rely on Him! And, if it took me living on the other side of the world, to be so lonely at times that I don't have anyone but Him to turn to...then it is worth it. This is how our love for God, our relationship with Him, is suppose to be! We are to be TOTALLY abandoned to Him!! And, well, sometimes if there are distractions all around you, then you don't always turn to Him.

So, I encourage myself and you, to TURN OFF DISTRACTIONS>>>GET ALONE WITH YOUR PRINCE>>>And find out what He is saying to you. He always brings that perfect peace that we are looking for. And, I am so VERY THANKFUL TO YOU JESUS!! You are truly the greatest love!!

Love you all and miss you dearly!

Sandy

PRAYER REQUESTS:

--That the FIRE of God would remain kindled in our lives

--Strengthening of our marriage

--Our family to continue to thrive here and that JOY would abound in our home!

--Greater burden for the thai people

--John's language and preaching abilities in Thai to sky-rocket

--Church plant and cell group

--Converts to come out of relationships built

--$1,000 more monthly support

GIVE ME GRACE TO WALK THE PATH

2010-02-24T23:25:00.000-08:00

*If you haven't already, listen to Isa Couvertier(sp), go to iTunes, she's there!!

(These are our friends that we are working together with to start a Thai church and the after-school program. R-L The Lovorn's, The Cocran's, Chad/Nan/Sam, and Pastor Yot/Mo/Yobel)

I am really missing America today. Just wanting to chit-chat with a few friends, take the children to grandma's, things that don't happen around here as much. I think I am in need of a break. I am wanting to watch a really good movie, but, to be honest, don't know any that I feel like is worth my time. Sad :(. Just kind of tired of the same 'ole thing going on. The children are swimming across the street in the lake and Moriah is asleep. So, dinner plans...something tasty, something beneficial...not sure. Wanting something really good. I found a new mushroom curry recipe, thinking of trying that.
John is out of school for the 'summer' here in Thailand. It is really nice to have him around more, although he is still busy. On Saturday he will be preaching in Thai at a village church. So, he is gone working on his sermon and translating it into Thai. Then, of course, all of the errands that needed to be run. He will begin during this summer break with the after-school program, not sure of dates yet.
The weather is beautiful right now, warm/hot, but windy. We did a little school outside today and enjoyed the breeze. Thinking about maybe after dinner running into town, just to get out. Mothering 4 children and homeschooling, plus living in a foreign country equals me not getting out often!

SOME OF THIS WEEK'S MENU:

MACADAMIA NUT MILK
it turned out wonderful!! The children really enjoyed their chocolate mylk shakes and there was no guilt (well, maybe a little because of the 'not-so pure maple syrup' I had to use)

nut milk (about 2-3 cups) any kind will do
handful of ice

3T cocoa
3 T agave nectar
3T maple syrup
1 tsp vanilla

Whiz, whiz!! Yummy!!

COCONUT MACAROONS
these are wonderful!! Madaline thought I bought them!
1/2 cup Coconut Butter (just bake a cookie sheet full of coconut until turns golden and smells good-then put in blender with a little coconut oil and whiz until butter--keeps in fridge fine)
3 T cocoa
1 cup coconut
3T coconut oil

Process this all in the food processor. Roll out 1/2 inch balls with hand, put on wax paper, and then to freezer until ready to eat.

2 Corinthians 7:1
"Since we have these promises, dear friends, let us purify ourselves from everything that contaminates body and spirit, perfecting holiness out of reverence for God."

IT IS ALL ABOUT HIM!!! I love loving God and I love the way He loves me!! He sees us as beautiful, blooming flowers!! One of my favorite things about living in Thailand is that I am somewhat sheltered from the bad and unholy around me...don't get me wrong, it is here and here heavily. I feel like I don't have to see it or hear it as much as I did when in America. Maybe because I can't understand the language fully, so, that leaves me in somewhat of a bubble. And, quite honestly...I enjoy that!

Be blessed this week and run from the negative, unholy, unrighteous things around you. If it is negative, bad language, ugly, impure, and doesn't edify you or make you feel better---then flee quickly. Then, think about the beauty that God has given to us to enjoy!

I have a hilarious picture I kept trying to post in this spot of John, after a haircut a few weeks back. The beautician 'had a great time' fixing his hair...wish you could see it!

Love you my friends!!
sandy

Are You a Know it All?

2010-02-11T05:52:00.000-08:00

Things are great and happening here in Korat, Thailand. God is and has been soooo faithful and so good to us!! The children are all well, homeschooling is more fun than I ever imagined, and last, but definitely not least, John and I are continuing to grow closer and closer to one another.

Hanging out with my best friend, Jesus, the other day, I began meditating on 1 Cor. 8:2. These are just a few of my thoughts.

1 Cor. 8:2

'The man who thinks he knows something does not yet know as he ought to know."

I began to just ask the Lord to help me to always remain open and teachable. Help us to not think that 'our' way is the only way and the only 'right' way. That our hearts would remain soft and we would be ever ready to hear His voice, and His prodding. Let us not be so content in the ways that we have been 'conditioned' to live by, by society---Let us only be conditioned by the Lord!! Let not the world say 'sit boo-boo sit...good dog' and we--out of habit-- do as society or as tradition says. Let us always be willing and wanting what the Lord says.

Oh my goodness...as I am writing this I am reminded of the scripture He took me to today.

1 Col. 8:2

'See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ'.

How cool is that...it all goes together. What is God teaching? Do we even care? Are we too busy with our own 'Sunday, happy-Christian routine' to step out and ask God for ourselves? Don't always let the preacher teach you how to live...let the preacher encourage you to live as God has quietly instructed you in your private time.

Are we too busy running from our 9-5, to soccer practice, then to the fast food chain? Can we even hear Him? Allow God to be your role model, our private teacher concerning ALL aspects of life. Don't just 'go with the flow, with tradition'. Lord, teach us about marriage, child-rearing, gardening, entertainment, hobbies, etc...be our Teacher. We have given Him our all, you know, 'surrender all', but have we? We try not to sin, try to live a 1 Cor. 13 lifestyle, a Pro. 31 woman is our goal, but have we asked Him to teach us about day to day living. We will go to college and spend thousands of dollars to get our 'degree', but are we studying how to be a good marriage partner, a good mother, a good nuturer for our family? These are careers that NEVER end, and guess what? God wants to teach us the BEST way. Is the way our forefathers handled things the 'best'? There are more broken homes today than ever, more obesity and cancer than ever, more depression than ever, and this list continues.

Let's ask God how He wants us to handle the small things in life and not just the big things.

There you go...now for a recipe

We have had this for breakfast several mornings in the past two weeks and the children like it

Blueberry and Banana Cereal

cut up some bananas

a handful of blueberries

young coconut water and meat (blend this to make the milk and pour over your bananas and blueberries)

Yummy!!

We also did this today with mango and it was delicious!!!!

Green Smoothie (or in our house, the 'army' drink, or 'princess' smoothie)

handful of greens (in America--i used spinach, Thailand--well, some 'dee jai' green)

banana or 2

handful of ice

coconut water and/or meat if you like

some honey(optional)

whiz, whiz...and there you go! Your greens for the day, and the children like this too(Gabe and Moriah LOVE it, Madaline and Lake--say pass the carrot juice please)

AS WE SPEAK, THE FAM JUST CAME IN AND SAID, 'MORIAH IS WALKING'!!

OKAY, one more picture...this is yummy, yummy tamarind!! So healthy for women, consistency of caramel, grows on a tree...thinking of raw pie crust...do you think it would work? Maybe replacing the dates?? I will let you know.

TAMARIND

EXPECTATIONS/HOMESCHOOL/BREAD

2010-01-17T06:18:00.000-08:00

I haven't posted since October...it doesn't seem that long ago. Sometimes, I begin going through things that I believe most wouldn't want to hear. So, I know it is sad to say, but as a missionary, I feel that 'ministry' stuff is what a lot of people had rather hear. Ministry is great and especially fun to hear about when God is visibly moving in that area. As a baby on the field, I choose NOT to write when times are difficult. If, in the future, you don't hear from me...email me :).

God has brought us through an extremely difficult season!! I have posted about some of the difficult times in the past, even eluding to the fact that things were better, and, I honestly, at that time, was given a breath of fresh air. Overall, the testing has lasted for more than a year. The lesson that I have learned is to lower your expectations of man and continue to expect the greatest from the Lord. On December 28th, the Lord took me to Deuteronomy 8:2

"Remember how the Lord your God led you all the way in the desert these forty years, to humble you and to test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands...to teach you that man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord."

Wow!! That is so powerful to me!! To know what is in my heart!! Are we going to split and run when the going gets tough? No, just hold on by the strength of the Lord! New Year's Eve was like a breakthrough for us. Since that night the Lord has opened so many doors for ministry and has released us to walk through them!

I will share very soon about these awesome opportunities that have opened for us to minister the gospel with Thailand!!

Right now, the weather is soooo sweet!! It is 'fallish'.

The children are in bed, I have downloaded a free e-book called 'Smooth and Easy Days' with Charlotte Mason(I hope I get to read it soon :)). If any of you are homeschooling and appreciate the works of Charlotte Mason, please visit simplycharlottemason.com, I am sure you will be blessed. This site really helps organize this method.

I am really missing craft time with my children, if any of you out there have any great craft ideas that somehow fit in with your study, please send me a link or an email. When Madaline was small she did so many crafts, now with 4 children, crafts are limited, and I miss experiencing the fun with crafts.

great and easy WHOLE WHEAT BREAD (without a machine, since i fried mine)

Grind your wheat (or buy it already ground)

4 cups warm water

1 1/2- 2 T yeast

1/3 cup honey

Mix and let sit about 10 minutes. Add enough flour to make a sponge (kind of thick, until it slowly pours off wooden spoon). Stir with spoon 200 strokes. Let sit until rises about double.

Add 1/4 cup olive oil and 1 T salt. Stir.

Add enough flour to knead. My best loaves are a little sticky, but firm enough to bounce back when you poke it. (You can also add a little white bread flour if you want to get some gluten in there, which helps with texture, or all whole wheat and add straight gluten--up to you:)

Then, let it sit until double its size. Break in to two halves. You will be making two loaves.

Forcefully throw onto counter and knead well, to remove all air bubbles. Shape into loaves, put in two, well greased loaf pans. Bake at 350 for 25-30 minutes.

You can make many different variations. Last week we had one plain whole wheat and one cranberry walnut. Just throw the additives in at the end. Tomorrow I will try cinnamon sugar!! Yummy...I am hungry!!!

Recipe---Special thanks the Carolyn Shafer!!! You and your family are my role models :)

Inspired from A.B.---let's eat more RAW today!! Whew, it sure is a challenge, but so beneficial!!! Lord, help me to benefit myself and my family this week.

Continue to let Jesus rock your world!!! He is the most amazing!! In Paul's troubles he was always encouraged by JOY!!! Let's be full of JOY!!!!

Prophecy from Bethel:

2010 is the year of birthing the vision!!!

2010 if the year of incredible intimacy with the Lord!!!!

This is the year of going into the unknown!!!

AMEN!!!!

love you all

Flourishing Throughout Every Season

2009-10-28T00:57:00.000-07:00

We are having such a wonderful time/season of our lives right now. What a blessing it is! I have also been coming out of one of the most difficult seasons of my life, so I am going to write about that a little. It has lasted for over a year!! That is such a long season. I thought seasons were only a few months.

I have hesitated to write so many times because of the challenges I was facing. I didn't know exactly what to say, so I chose to just continue in prayer. I feel like the Lord shows me something daily, for ME to work on. I kept thinking 'so and so' needed to fix themselves, I am just fine! HA. And you know what, so and so may need to work on themselves, but my job is for me to listen as the Lord corrects MY faults. I feel so challenged, in such a great way, right now. I think the difficult season was me getting to a place of being ready for more pruning. How thankful I am to have a Creator who cares enough about me to instruct me DAILY!! What another blessing! I love being ready for the challenge, feeling strong, wanting to pass the test and being ready for the fire. One day I was really having a hard time, just feeling down, tired, discouraged...wondering what exactly we are doing. I was walking and listening to such a wonderful message by someone from Bethel, I think Kris Valloton, and he said, 'there is no season of loss, Joseph flourished in prison and he flourished beside Potipher'. That was exactly what I needed to hear!! This season of difficulty has not been one of loss!!! Our home, our children, our marriage, our lives, are more vibrant now than they have ever been. Praise the Lord for every season!! There is a time for everything under the sun!! Sometimes while in the midst of a challenge we begin to question things... this is when we will find out where our hearts are! Who do we turn to when the going gets tough? Our help comes from the Lord!!

Love suffers long!! You can have suffering without love, but you can't have love without suffering!! I have heard my mother say, 'Sandy, pain is your friend', soooo many times. Some of the time I would think to myself, 'man, that sounds so hard'. She is exactly right though! That is when things begin to heal, when the pain gets so unbearable, the only choice you have is to call on Him. I think most of the time, when things get hard, people just push it down, push down the pain so as not to show the church any difficulties. Everyone looks at one another, smiles, say's 'God Bless You', and moves on. Let's get real!!

So, for the good stuff! Love DOES suffer long. Things may not always feel good, but our hearts know the right thing to do, the right way to respond, even if it is hard to respond in love. The children's Bible study for a few weeks really turned out to be for me. We cleaned house from all sinful speech. Murmuring, complaining, meddling, lying, sarcasm, name calling, and several others...oh, Lake calls it 'gospeling' (gossiping) :). I have found myself with such a negative tone, not even because the children were doing anything wrong, but because I had too much I was trying to do at one time. Then, we have to look at how that tone or gesture makes our children feel. Are they walking away feeling like they have done something wrong, when in all actuality, our tone was wrong, because of our own personal responsiblities.

Another word that blessed me and encouraged me, 'A wise person is ALWAYS prepared for the unexpected!!' Expections have been something that has caused a lot of my challenges. I have come into different situations expecting them to go one way, then they have turned a complete180. You know what? What I expect to happen in this life is really probably not going to happen, the way I want it to! God is in control and He will change my circumstances to fit His plan for my life. So, right now, I am trying really hard to have expectations for only God!! I do expect Him to move in my life, lead me, and direct me! And, HE IS!!

EXCITING NEWS:

If things go as they are right now :), the building for the after-school proagram will be rented this week!! So...then it is on to getting the supplies, the door for the building, and a few other things. Please keep this in your prayers!!

And...HAPPY THANKSGIVING AND MERRY CHRISTMAS!! I know, we are early, but it is only in the 90s around here and feels like fall, so I am enjoying it. I will sign off and go bake some sweet potatoe pie and play scrabble with my chilins. (Told you I was starting early :) ).

Blessings from the other side of the world!!

Love you all!!

Sandy

My addition to our October newsletter!!!

2009-10-14T01:23:00.001-07:00

Hey everyone!! Things are going good here in Thailand. We have all been so busy with taking care of the family, a new baby, home schooling, and all the responsibilities of life. Thank You Jesus for a vehicle, which is also an added responsibility, but a very welcomed one. I am so thankful to the Lord for His provision! This was such a testimony to us and the children and such a faith builder. We knew that it was all in His perfect timing and I believe that it was. I am thankful for the time and the grace for riding our motorcycles. I learned so much about our city, I learned a lot about the culture, and now that I am driving a car, I realize that I have learned how to drive better here in the middle of hundreds of motorcycles!! I know what the drivers are thinking.

The children and I have started visiting the World Vision School on Fridays and are teaching them English. There are about 15 children, they live on the railroad tracks in tin homes among lots of trash. The families just ‘squat’ here as this is government property and they do not have to buy it. It is such a sad situation. The school that we visit is run by two thai ladies who are Christians and were once funded by ‘World Vision Outreach’. I understand that now(from my limited understanding of thai) they are receiving NO funding from this organization. We are trying to provide their rice for them each month. There ‘school’ is in such pitiful shape that someone keeps crawling in through a hole in the bathroom and stealing the rice!

One day when we arrived there was a little baby sitting in a walker sucking on an empty beer bottle while his ‘grandmother’ was sorting trash. I was so heart-broken for this child. After the recent flooding on this side of the world, there was a man sitting in his ‘backyard’, knee deep in water with trash floating around him, smoking a cigarette. I gazed into his eyes and could see such hopelessness. I have such a huge vision for this area, but of course I must do only what I can at this time. There are not enough workers. Wouldn’t it be great to be able to help these people find jobs or to teach them a trade, help them build a home, or move out of this garbage dump!! I have to constantly remind myself that I have 4 wonderful children of my own and that I must care for them first, not to mention my husband and myself.

That leads me to say that we all do need prayer and more of it. We have all been sick, at least one of us, for 4 weeks now. It is so rainy and hot here that any cut, blister, mosquito bite, etc… is taking weeks to heal. John and I are constantly reminded to put God first, marriage second, then our children, then family, then friends, THEN this ministry. Sometimes that is difficult to our flesh. We long to see the thai people won to Christ, we long to speak the language, but we also know that our ministry is only going to be as strong as our family is. We must constantly work on our marriage and our family life and not get priorities out of line.

The children are really thriving and that is such a blessing for us to see. They are all sooooo precious and each day our hearts have more and more love for them. I never imagined that I would have 4 such awesome children. Madaline is doing so well in school, she just amazes me. She has a pet rabbit and is so responsible with her. She is taking ballet and doing a beautiful job. We have been watching You Tube videos of different ballets and she is so motivated to practice. John and Madaline are taking art classes together on Saturdays and then John gets to ‘date’ her after the class. To see Madaline’s glowing face as she jumped in the car with ‘daddy’ last Saturday, made my week. Isn’t that how God is to us? He takes care of us and gives us ‘special’ attention! Lake is reading so well, I love that part of home schooling, so far it is one of my favorite, watching them learn to read! He is so excited and runs to tell me everything he reads. He is really wanting to take Taekowondo, and we plan on enrolling him soon. Lake has such an amazing imagination, playful heart, and is the ‘jokester’ of the family so far (other than his daddy!). He is always the one who says, ‘okay, cut it out’, if any altercations arise. Gabe is still into any and every creepy crawly he can get his hands on. He is such the helper, he loves to juice all of my carrots in the mornings (that is such a huge help to me, by the time he is finished I can have breakfast on the table J)! He loves his letters and enjoys sounding them out throughout every day! And last, but not least, Moriah has got to be one of the most gentle babies ever! She ceases to amaze me! Her smile is one of a kind and her laugh just brings immediate joy to the moment! I love them all so much and am so thankful to God for the blessing that they are to my life. I cannot believe that He has rewarded me with such precious children!

I did want you guys to know that I keep a blog and if you would like more frequent updates please email me at john_lovorn@hotmail.com. I am glad to add you to the email list. It is easier for us to update via internet than through mail. There are photographs as well. Facebook is probably the most up to date information on our lives here.

Thank you all once again, from the bottom of my heart for all of you prayers and support to the calling here in Thailand. We can’t wait until the day we get to see you all again face to face. Until then, I love you and pray that the blessings of the Lord overtake you.

Sandy Lovorn

Shape Me, Here I Am, Open, Broken, and Willing

2009-08-31T01:25:00.000-07:00

Update first---

We had a great time with missionary friends from Hat Yai, Thailand, who visited for about a week. They have been here 8 years and were such a blessing, strength, and encouragement to us all. Wonderful prayer and worship together, it was such a blast...similar feelings like the holidays in America with all of your family. 18 children in all!!! Praise the Lord for all the children!!

We are attempting to rent the storefront for the after-school program and are meeting resistance from the owner. We feel that we are to have it up and running by October. In God's timing we know, please pray for His perfect will.

Madaline, Lake, and I will begin studying thai language again September 7. We have all been really encouraged with the language and feel it is time to study with a teacher again.

I realize that when we all work to advance the kingdom of God that we do meet resistance from the enemy. This can make life extremely challenging (to say the least). I wish I could be with each of you to really bear my heart, for now we will just skim the surface.

Life on the mission field. The last two years, easy...still a honeymoon, new things, learning language, etc...Now, the rubber is hitting the road. The ease is not here. It is hard, a true calling, and I am realizing first and foremost the seriousness of the call. The dedication that must be involved in living out God's call. Carpet time is a MUST...we cannot live without prayer, period...here or there. Try to live one minute, around here, in my opinion without calling on the name Jesus and you will be attacked. Last night, I could see the big picture and understanding flooded my heart...then, when I got up and started living life the little things became, and become, extremely hard. Of course in perfect time I read this quote:

"Trust Me, My child," He says. "Trust Me with a fuller abandon than you ever have before. Trust Me, as minute succeeds minute, every day of your life, for as long as you live. And if you become conscious of anything hindering our relationship, do not hurt Me by turning away from Me. Draw all the closer to Me, come, run to Me. Allow Me to hide you, to protect you, even from yourself. Tell Me your deepest cares, your every trouble. Trust Me to keep My hand upon you. I will never leave you. I will shape you, mold you, and perfect you. Do not fear, O child of My love, do not fear. I love you." Amy Carmichael

This quote is so amazing, such encouragement and help in times of difficulty. God please help me to always live by this. I want to run to Him at all times. He cares so much about the little problems we go through.

I regret that I do not write more, sometimes I just don't know exactly what to say. I love and we love our life here, our calling, our family, etc... God is so amazing, always moving in our lives, and we are continually hungry for more of Him. Thank you all for your prayers, love, and support as we join with the Lord in advancing His kingdom!! It is worth it all!!!!

LET'S GET SET-APART!!!

2009-07-27T00:56:00.000-07:00

I hope this all finds you doing well and growing strongly in the Lord. If not, I pray that He will reveal Himself to you more and more, strengthen you, and give you courage and desire to fight to know Him more intimately. I love each and every one of you and have been missing the close relationships I have in America and even the not so close relationships! Just to be around believers is so special and strengthening even if there is not a super close bond.

I don't really know where to start. God is speaking so much to me during this time... I am just going to write as if I am speaking with you face to face. I will start with the latest and throw in other things as it comes to mind. I am walking through an extremely lonely place right now. It is so good on one hand and on the other very difficult, but God is so super close to me, so I am not that lonely. I probably should not have even typed that word. To you, so that you will know my condition, lonely seems appropriate. I am literally waking up, walking throughout the day, then evening, then night, calling on the name of Jesus! It is so wonderful and I pray that when this season passes that I will have learned to call on His name continually like this for the rest of my life, even when on the mountains of life.

I am still milling over the fact that I have ultimately no one to please on earth other than Jesus, my Father and Lord. Once I have pleased Him, I am pleasing to all. That brings so much peace, I love it.

I was skyping with a wonderful friend on Friday night. She has just had her 5th child and we are always laughing together, crying together, and trying to get the hang of this life together. What a blessing she is to my life. She was filling me in on the political scene in America. I was blown away by some of the things I heard. Later that night, John and I were continuing to talk about these issues. A side note: also, my friend and I were acknowledging the fact that God has called us to raise these wonderful children, as difficult as it may seem at times. John and I had talked for about an hour or two, I was still getting my spoken words in for the day, as he started to snore! So, it quickly became God and I. It was so awesome! I picked up my Bible and my book light. I began to flip and flip and flip. Every page I turned to, was a word just for me, in every situation I am in at this present time. God is so amazing like that! I laid and prayed and read. I was pondering this situation in America, having these large families, the challenges that we face at times, the loneliness I feel, the attacks of the enemy that seem to not cease, etc... my brain was going and going. By the way, I have had it with the devil. He is a liar, a thief, a pitiful, pitiful existence on the face of the earth. We are victorious in Christ Jesus!! Billboards, music, homosexuals, cross dressers, immodest clothing, idols ( not only in Thailand, I am talking about the American ones too), TV, entertainment, etc...What and Who are we living for? Our own selfish pleasures? Our needs, our wants, our desires? It is not about us!!! This is what the Lord kept showing me that night in bed. Yes, this life can throw its challenges our way. I can have, very easily, a stressful day, snap at my children, disrespect my husband, and stomp away mad. But, is it really about me? Is it really about how hard I have it, how challenging this lifestyle can be, how hard it is on the mission field? Oh poor me? Whatever!! It is about the lost, His kingdom, raising our children to be warriors in this fallen world!! I pondered and pondered and felt the Lord impressing that there is a family movement sweeping across the nation. The Lord is raising up a generation that will fight the good fight and not give up, fight with all their might. These children are going to be warriors, ready to stand up to their adversaries with confidence. They are going to know the Bible, the word of the Lord, and have it hidden in their hearts and not be ashamed to speak it out. It is a vision that the Lord is planting inside THIS generation, you and me, in order to fulfill His plans on the earth. We must take hold of this vision in order to walk in the fruit! God is on the THRONE!! He sees our struggles, He sees our weaknesses and our desires! Lord, help us to not be so concerned with ourselves, our agenda, our plan, our life, our show, our movie, our dinner, our hairstyle, our waistline that we miss the vision that YOU have called us to help YOU fulfill.

In the midst of all of this I received my weekly devotion from Above Rubies. I couldn't believe my eyes...the title, something like 'Our Children as Speakers'. There were scripture references after scripture references for 'speaking boldly', 'speaking with Kings and Rulers', and 'Always ready to speak to those who oppose'. This is our children in the future!!! They will be ready to speak to those who oppose!!!! Yes, Lord... Thank you Jesus!! They will be ready! We are training them now!! We may get tired, we may face battle after battle, but little David is bigger with God on his side!! We will kill the giant!! Our children will know the truth!! And guess what, the truth WILL set them free!! When this came to mind that night, I kept seeing the Israelites being set free! Our nation and the whole world is in bondage!! Our children are going to set them free, they will set the captives free! We must plant seeds, we must teach them the scripture, they MUST know!! Our children are raised in the nurture and admonition of the Lord, they have the word hidden in their hearts, bound around their necks, placed on the foreheads, talked about as they walk along the way. We can't sit back and wait for bed time each night and add a quick story and prayer!! NO!! It has to be more!!! It must be more!!! It must be what our life is all about! Forget our own agendas, the movie and the popcorn, the trip to get the latest game for the Xbox... you have got to be kidding?! Look at our country! We have got to stop being so consumed with our own lives!

Another note: After my last post I was wondering... do I share too much of the truth about myself? Am I wrong for sharing my weaknesses. That same wonderful night with the Lord, 1 Corinthians 9:22 jumped off of my page!! It says, 'to the weak, I became weak, to win the weak.' Praise the Lord!! I am weak, right now, I feel absolutely helpless, so vulnerable. Seriously, the Lord is my all in all, He is the lifter of my head. His joy is my strength. I have always heard these scriptures, my whole life, and now, for the first time, I can say that literally days and days have gone by now that HE IS MY strength! I am nothing without Him, I can do nothing without Him! And guess what, if I have been brought all the way to the other side of the world to be lonely enough to grasp those things, that is worth it! I have recently really been able to empathize with missionaries from years past. I have been reading such a wonderful book called 'Set-Apart Femininity' and the author continually writes about Gladys Alward, Amy Carmichael, Elizabeth Fry, Vibia Perpetua, and Sabina Wurmbrand. If you don't know these women, they are much more interesting than the latest blockbuster or crime scene show. They will challenge you more than you thought you could be challenged. You know what?! If these women can make it, so can we!

Well, there is still so much I would love to share with my wonderful friends and family. I miss you all so much you just can't understand. I love you and wish that every time I had seen you all in the past that I would have embraced you for minutes and really poured out to you how I feel about each and every one of you! You are all so special! If I could only articulate what exactly I feel for you all!! Thank you for all of you prayers! You are wonderful, highly favored of the Lord!! We are all in this race together!!

** We cut Gabe's hair off yesterday:( !! I can't believe it, but you know it is time to cut a boy's hair when everyone thinks he is a girl!

**He turned 3 on the 25th and we had a wonderful time at the zoo and swim park. I will have to write about our zoo experience next post, I am out of time, but it was a GOD trip!

** Madaline, Lake, and Moriah are wonderful!! I have truly been blessed with awesome, awesome children. They are the perfect match for me as a mommy!

**John is working hard and doing well!

UNTIL NEXT TIME...BE BLESSED!!

Standing Strong

2009-07-15T05:17:00.000-07:00

Wow! I guess you all could tell I was going through a rough time last post! Praise God I feel much better!! Thank you all for praying!

I am doing great! God is so good and so faithful! My mom's visit went really well, we went through some great things while she was here, prayed a lot and saw God move! I miss her dearly and since she has been gone, I feel so strong and so encouraged in the Lord.

We had another visitor, my midwife's daughter, from America (the lady that delivered Gabe). What an amazing visit! I was again so encouraged and just felt the spurring on of the Lord as she was here. I think that moving to Thailand has been wonderful for our family, of course it has, because it is the Lord's plan. However, things have been harder, and it takes constant communion with the Lord and those serving Him to stay focused and on task (anywhere!). I am speaking, right now, of raising children, not of ministry to the thai people. I feel that sometimes we get so anxious in life to 'minister' to others, but our first ministry is and should be our own family. I have been able to see weak walls around our home, God has opened them up and brought the plan of the enemy into the light for me. We have to stay in constant prayer for our families or the enemy will sneak in. Let's get in this together and not let the enemy steal what the Lord is trying to do in our families. The first and greatest ministry to non-christians around the globe is an 'On Fire, Jesus loving, Holy Ghost family'. We cannot get too busy to recognize the needs around us, in our family. We need to think, where is our Passion? Is it in the right place? Where our passion is there our heart will be also. 'Be on guard so that you may not be carried away by the error of lawless men and fall from your secure position'. (2 Pet 3:17) Are we meeting all of our families needs, not just physical and spiritual, but what about emotional needs? Sometimes we can get so preoccupied with making sure everyone is having fun and being bathed, fed, educated... but what about their emotions? Let's slow down a little and sit back and observe.

I am just spilling beans here...what God is doing here...so take it if you need it. There are 5 primary ways of communication: 1. Righteously responding in a timely manner. (Eph. 4)

2. Receive Hurt, but hide it--an Enabler (not good! produces passive/aggressive behavior) 3. Eye for an Eye/Tooth for Tooth (If you fight fire with fire, don't be surprised if you get a bigger fire) 4. Revenge says 'I will train you to never do that again 5. Redeeming!!! The greatest!! We are all called to be a redeemer in every relationship that causes us pain/frustration. LET'S DO IT!!

This is so easy to read and understand, but so difficult for so many of us to act out! Lord, help us all to be better communicators in every relationship that we are in.

Around the house--- I fried my bread machine a couple of weeks ago, big bummer for me! I plugged it in to the outlet, wrong wattage--why??? I forgot! So, Carolyn taught me to make some yummy bread by hand, and believe it or not, I am not sore afterwards!! It is actually quite simple. I made some really nasty cream cheese last week, I think I will try to use it in something?! It was fun though, just to try it. Also, tried to make some ginger ale --- yuck! I had the children all psyched up for it, then it was another bummer- oh well, fun anyway. There is an extra lot beside the house and we are about to clean it off, granted permission today, but still unsure if we can grow a garden on it-- heading that direction though. We really want the children to learn to work outside. We found some bee hives only 2 hours away, so we are going to try and get those in a couple of weeks, then teach myself and the children to care for them... can't wait. Please pray that this works out, they are really excited about it.

Homeschooling-- going great! Trying to keep it up for a while longer, until Thanksgiving. Reporting grades this week. I still can't believe I have a 5th and 1st grader!! My goodness, we are all getting old!!! I am sitting here listening to Christmas music and it soooo makes me miss America!! I love you all and can't wait until we meet again-- face-to-face!!! Until next time--- Blessings to you all!!!

Prayer Request:

Please pray for a lady I met at ballet. I have taken her a Bible for her 14 yo son who has been reading it daily. She says she doesn't understand why he likes the Bible so much. He reads, then prays, then reads, then prays!! :) He became interested in the 'Good Book' after watching 'Fiddler on the Roof!' She tells me she is buddhists and doesn't understand why this book makes him so happy!! Praise the Lord!!

Please pray for my house helper (Pee Nee) and her family, who have seeked our knowledge concerning black magic that they practice, but were unwilling for us to pray for them!

Peter and his wife Noi continue to come over to our house!!

Pee Mon, our 1st thai teacher, came for prayer last week for her mother who is in the hospital in Bangkok!

Pray for our family that we would continue to be strong and fight the good fight, withstanding the enemy and his tactics, not letting darkness creep in, but continuing to stand in the light of our Father!!

John goes to meet with pastors of Korat in the morning.

Blessings and Fire to you all again!!!

GOD is still beautiful in the valley...

2009-06-20T05:03:00.000-07:00

You know, I could write a post and say a lot of great things that make you feel real happy inside. I can fill you with many positives of life. There have been several great things happening lately. We were able to watch as my Japanese friend was saved last Sunday--PRAISE THE LORD!! Many thai children, living in poverty, filth, etc... were totally blessed when they received gifts from First Baptist Church in Milan, TN---PRAISE THE LORD!!!

But, the truth is, personally, our family is in the valley, we are going through it big time right now. We NEED You to Pray. No details, as it would take me a while. I just want to be honest with you all. The enemy is attacking our family in a huge way and we need you to get on your face and pray with us. Send them up, it is serious, it is hard, and it is not easy to stay on top of life some days. It is very easy to get weary. I literally feel as if scripture has to be in front of my face at all times in order to stay strong. I really don't know what else to say except that it gets hard out here, the enemy is prowling around seeking whom he may devour, and in the name of Jesus it will not be this family.

Sometimes I get tired of only hearing how great everything is in everyone's life when I know there are struggles. Let us be here for one another, let us talk about our lives so that we can walk in the fullness God has for us. Let us be open and swallow all pride, why paint pictures, why play games, when the body of Christ is to be here for one another. God gives us each other so that we can make it through the dark times. The Christian life is not easy, therefore, everyone can't always be so perky, so let's not act like we are in a movie. Let's not be fakes, let's not act like we are in Hollywood. Let's not shut our hearts off to one another because of past wounds, insecurities, and the like. Let's join hands, unite, and fight the enemy. Find someone to open up to and spill your guts, express your feelings, your pains, and then let them pray for your wounded heart. We all have been hurt, we all need JESUS. Let's go for it together!!

My prayer is to not offend anyone by being so open, I know it is easier to listen to something sweet and that moves you emotionally for the better. I BELIEVE that it is better for our health to face the facts and deal with the problems in order that our lives may be lived out in the fullness of joy that Christ intended for us!!!

I love you all!! Thank you for your prayers!!

Sandy

GOD IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!

2009-06-07T12:58:00.000-07:00

I am lying in bed, awake, way too late. Thinking upon the beauty of our Creator. He is so magnificent! I am praying for friends all over the world, some white with brown hair, some white with blonde hair, some black with black hair, some brown with black hair, some yellow-skinned with black hair, some large, some small, some rich, some poor, some Christian, some buddhists, some agnostic, some atheist. Thinking of these friends and aquaintances, I began to think of the beauty of the Lord. The Lord has blessed us all with the beauty of who He is, just with the people around us. I think of these people, my friends, and how unique they all are. They all love different things, have different habits, eat different foods, enjoy different entertainment. One thing is the same among us all, they want to know the Creator of the Universe, they want to be loved by Jesus, they all long for this void to be filled, and some do not even know what it is they are looking for. They are searching, trying to figure out who they are, why they are here, what they are to be doing. Let us go tell them. We need to look around us and grab a hold of the richness of who HE is. Who can we influence, encourage, motivate, or nurture. We may be walking through uncertain times; economically, physically, personally, but nevertheless-- GOD has called you, He has called me, He has called all who call upon HIS name, to bless others with the light that He so freely gives. Let it flow naturally, let His light illuminate your being so that others question what it is about you. Don't strive, strain, or be restless. Be natural, be who you are, even if you yourself are walking through a tough time, God is still God, you still love Him, and you can still be a light. Share your struggle and how you will lean on the Lord. That is sometimes what other unbelievers need to hear. Life is not always a walk in the park for a Christian. We go through struggles, doubts, fears, disappointments, etc... but how do we handle it? That is what others need to know. Be open, be honest, be yourself. Don't put on a " happy-I- am-always-great-kind-of face". Share how you pray through to the end, you persevere, you suffer long, you love the unlovable, touch the untouchable, keep no record of wrongs. Just look for that open door, it is there, it is obvious. If you look, you will see it. But, if we are too preoccupied with our own self, we may miss it. Stop thinking about your circumstance, your inadequacies, your failures. Everyone has made mistakes, made a wrong decision, or said the wrong thing. Just look for the door and advance, be the light that the individual in your door may not have seen for some time or ever. It will come natural, light attracts darkness, just shine!

I am thinking of a wonderful, young girl from Japan, whom I recently had the privilege of hanging out with here at home. She is so lost, but so drawn to the light. I have seen her begin to illuminate, just from hanging out in the light. Is she saved yet, no, but GOD is for her, and if we as believers continue to shine around her, God will eventually shine through her.

I think of another friend, a thai convert, who has recently allowed a cultural difference begin to move her away from believers. Pray that she be reunited and continues to let the light of God shine through her. She shines all over our community, she is beautiful, and the enemy is trying his best to snuff her out. BUT GOD!! He is in control, He will win!!

Another, a German and his thai wife, are drawn to the light-- continually. Another, a thai business man and his ever-so-small wife--are drawn to the light. Another, our thai teacher from when we first arrived--going through personal struggles within the family--is drawn. How many that we converse with daily are being touched by the light they receive and we don't even realize it. I see it all before me, I am just waiting anxiously, for God to move strongly on them all!

Please pray and LET YOUR LIGHT SHINE NATURALLY!!! Bless those around you!

Love you all!

Working It All Out and Feeling Better

2009-05-20T03:42:00.000-07:00

It has taken 7 1/2 weeks so far, but I think we are finally starting to get the hang of life with 4 children. I must say, it is a daunting task, you must prepare ahead and become even more organized if you want to get anything done. Today, I have spent about 2 hours meal planning for the next 2 weeks. I still do not grocery shop for another week, but I figure 'I better do it while I have the time'. I have started cooking every other Saturday, in order to have as much prepared ahead of time as possible. So far, it is working out well, Praise the Lord!!

John started teaching English at a local highschool here in Korat last week. He has around 550 students in 1 week. Having a different group of classes every day helps his planning become a bit easier. I am thankful for this job, which has enabled us to get a work visa and we will not have to leave America every 15 months. We will be able to only leave when we want.

I have been memorizing 1 Cor. 13 this week, which I feel I desperately need to remember even more during this time of my life. The Lord has called John and I to a life of giving Him the freedom to bless us with as many children as He feels we can handle. Lately, it has been a bit of a challenge to continue walking in this surrender. Sometimes I feel as if I am not walking in love. This passage of scripture is really hitting home. Yesterday, I was thinking on verse 3, I believe, where it says, '...if I surrender my life to the flame, but have not love, I gain nothing'. You know, I can surrender all to God, yea, it sounds real nice, but if I am not walking in love then what do I gain...NOTHING! Love is not easily angered, love is not rude--seems like I remember being easily angered and rude all at the same time! Come on Jesus!! I know He is changing me and molding me, I love it, even though it hurts...a lot! I would be lying if I said these past several weeks have been easy. They have been fun, you know, enjoying a new blessing, watching the children around here, but easy...no! It has hurt, in more ways than one. I always feel that with each child the Lord brings more dirt out of my heart. It is pruning season, and we all know that hurts. But, God is good all the time, and He knows what we all need. So, thank the Lord, I feel like we are over the hump now and hearing the Lord really speaking love, mercy, grace, and patience. I thank Him for His loving kindness!

Here is a quote I read the other day that really hits home:

"People turn their best side out; they are delightful in company, but snarly at home. There they give vent to their dissatisfaction, their temper, their grouch. They are scent-bottles abroad, vinegar-bottles at home...to be a christian at home one must learn to 'keep sweet'."

My prayer for us all is that we will be scent-bottles at home!! God bless you all as you continue to seek Him for you families and your lives!!

Sandy

Finally Back!!...to Blogging!

2009-05-01T21:27:00.000-07:00

Well, I decided to start a new blog at blogspot, our server on the mac has been down since arriving from America. I apologize for not being able to keep you posted on life in Thailand other than through Facebook. I know many of you don't participate in Facebook. We love each and every one of you and thank you for all of your prayers and support.

God has been so good to us and has blessed us with the most wonderful blessing, another child. Moriah Marie Lovorn ('God is my Teacher'), was born on April 24 at 10:45 pm here in our own home. I had virtually no pain, as it was definitely a supernatural childbirth. My midwife was to come in from Bangkok and was to arrive at about 11:00-11:30 pm. Moriah decided to come on without anyone around but me. John and Madaline were downstairs picking up the house, as we had company that night. The boys were already in bed asleep. I was in my bedroom getting ready to finish the backstitching on Moriah's quilt. I had some wonderful worship music playing by Sarah McMillan and was walking around during contractions, which I had decided were going to continue for maybe another week. They were not very painful and I had talked to several other mothers who said, 'with each child you have contractions weeks before delivery'. I had called my midwife earlier that morning to let her know I was still having contractions, as I had been having them 4 days before. I told her I felt like a first time mom, because I didn't know if Moriah was coming or not. To make a very exciting and long story short, I had to use the restroom, went, and out Moriah came!!! I began yelling for John to help. Madaline came in first, as John was slowly on his way. Madaline ran to tell John that she was already here, John thought she was only joking, until he walked up the steps and heard her crying!! What a blessing!!! I am so thankful for the speedy and pain-less delivery!! God is good! He knows exactly what we need and I definitely needed this!!

This was by far the most difficult pregnancy I have experienced. We arrived in America on July 24th or something like that. Then I found out I was pregnant within the first month of us being there. We were so busy and living with family and I was trying to homeschool during this time. I struggled with high blood pressure, borderline gestational diabetes, and exhaustion. So.... God knew I needed a speedy delivery. I will always praise Him and thank Him, and especially for this delivery.

Please continue to pray for our family as it is an adjustment adding another arrow to the quiver. John and I are both extremely busy with the children and it seems there is never a down moment. God is helping us figure out how to work in our 'personal time' with Him and our 'personal time' with each other. It is good, but also very challenging. I struggle with peace a lot, as it seems there is never any quiet time and I am pulled in so many directions ALL day long. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God has called us to our family and children and I can see Him working ALL the time in our lives, but still that does not make it easier. I have great days and then it seems I have many more challenging days. Please pray that in the midst of the noise, happy faces, dirty floors, dirty diapers, laundry, broken things, dinner, and all the rest, that the peace of God would flood over me, that I would experience supernatural peace and serenity and joy!!

The children are doing great! They are all so in love with Moriah and want to play, hold, bathe, change, etc... her all the time. Gabriel seems to really miss his mommy time, so we are really working on making sure that is fit in. Fit in with them all actually, making sure we get little snippets of personal time with them all, it can also be quite challenging. Lake seems to be the one who is having the least difficult time right now. He is just soooo happy! Madaline has been really missing her friends in America, so please pray for her. As we speak, she is downstairs with her two thai friends, Bowl and Ham, I just went in and she said, 'we are laughing a lot mommy, I am speaking thai a lot better with them'. So, again, Praise the Lord. Also, my mother and her cousin Abigail will arrive in Thailand on June 11th. Madaline, and all of us are really looking forward to that!! I can only imagine what she is going through. Friends are such a huge part of our lives, many of you reading this were my playmates growing up. It has got to be so difficult for her to not feel a 'part' of any girls lives around here. But, as I told her, God called us here and He knows exactly what we need in life! He will take care of us all! We will head to Bangkok on Wednesday to take the van back to the airport for our friends to get when they get off the plane. We will take one or both of these little girls with us, as we feel this will help connect them even more, and help Madaline with her language so that she can play better!

Many other things are going on here. We are going to start an after-school program for the children in our area as soon as the storefront buildings are complete. They have been under construction since before we left for America. Please pray for this outreach!! God is truly blessing it and has provided so much for it already!!! He has given us such a vision for the children and we are eager to get this started. All in His timing!!

John will start teaching English at a local highschool on May 12th. He will only work part-time in order to leave time for evangelism and the after-school program. This is a huge blessing for us as it is enabling us to get a Visa where we will not have to leave the country every 3 months or have to return to America every 15 months! PTL-- now we will only come to America as God tells us and it won't be something we must do in order to stay here.

We have also been blessed to use our friend's van while they were in America for 3 months and also a thai family let us use their car while they travelled to Indonesia for a month!! What a blessing! I, for the first time, drove Madaline, Moriah, and I to the grocery store! I cannot tell you how wonderful this felt! I was also able to put Moriah in a car seat!!! Boy, I felt safer than ever since moving here. Usually, and still, I plead the blood over us at ever push of the peddle or the start of the motorcycle! Thank you Jesus for a break in stress over these last 3 months! That leads me to tell you that we ARE actively raising support for a vehicle. We are looking at used vehicles. We have found out WE ARE able to buy a vehicle in our own name!! I know this will also happen in His perfect timing. Thank you for your prayers and support and please continue to lift this up in prayer as well!!

Here is our address in America and also in Thailand:

Fire in the Night Ministries, Inc.

PO Box 642

Milan, TN 38358

John and Sandy Lovorn

229/4 Moo 6 T. Joho A. Muang

Homegardenville 1

Soi 9

Korat, Thailand 30310